A Day in the life of

our first snow of the 2009-2010 winter!

2010-03-08T15:41:00.000-08:00

Today it snowed, not much else to say about that other than most of its melted and its super cold out and suppose to be below freezing tonight. that just means it will probably be icy in the morning and I need to drive to Shelton!
I really have nothing to add, just been busy with the kids cub scouts and Mary Kay.

Holy gees

2009-11-03T11:15:00.000-08:00

OMG! i cant believe it has been almost1 year since my last blog. i knew i was forgetting something. so much has changed in the last year i just dont know where to begin. The kids are growing and getting so big so fast, sarah surprises me the most because she is turning into a little girl not just a baby anymore. I have alot to write about but have to much to do today so enjoy a picture for now and check back later for the big update!

My latest trip to tahuya on nov 8th

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Photobucket Album

My latest trip to tahuya on nov 8th

2008-11-09T23:36:00.001-08:00

Photobucket Album

more 4x pix from oct.

2008-10-19T19:52:00.000-07:00

Just a new pic of me.

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Taken today.

Today was a good day

2008-10-05T19:30:00.000-07:00

I got to say something I have been wanting to say and got the answer I wanted to hear, im glad because I don’t know what I would have said or done had it been different than it was.
If you read this regularly you know that in January I was baptized. I believe that The Lord God is the only God that he gave his son Jesus so that we may one day live an eternal life with him. But I have been having a hard time with some things for a very long time. , I have wondered why god lets us suffer so much, why does he allow your life’s greatest love to be killed, why does he take peoples children to live with him to soon, why does he give a young mom with 2 babies cancer, why does he take our Fathers, Aunts, uncles and grandparents when we still have so much to learn from them. Why does he want us to suffer? Well I have the answer for that. he lets us suffer so that we will come to him, believe in his awesome power and know that he is the almighty, so we know that he loves us and will never leave us.
The past month I have been praying for strength to go forward and strength to forgive and strength to love. I thought he hadn’t heard me, that he wasn’t listening or that he didn’t care, all of this is untrue. He cares more than anyone. And he always will. I am here to tell you he does listen and he does answer our prayers. For the past 11 years I have been praying for the same thing, and this week he finally answered me. I have come to understand that he will answer you when you are ready, not just in your head but in your heart. If you pray for strength to do something you may have to wait but do not be fearful that he has forgotten you, he hasn’t. You just are not ready yet.
So I will continue to pray for strength to go forward and strength to forgive and strength to love.
I will surround myself with people who are also surrounded by God’s great love; I will be patient with God. I will love and respect myself and I will love and respect God.
He does answer and he does care.

I found a piece of paper I wrote some verses on in May of 2000, for me 2000 was a time of pain and desperation. A time I was not sure I would get through, but god was there for me, holding me up. He knew that times would get worse that in 2001 I would loose the love of my life to tragedy, that the road ahead would be painful and hard, but through patience and faith I would get through.
This is one of those verses that I want to share with you.

Luke 21:2; In your Patients ye shall win your souls.

the girls

2008-10-03T21:34:00.001-07:00

in case you are wondering who i spend so much time with knitting.. these are the girls at my yarn shop. Back row left to right; Peggy, Rhea, Carrie Front row; Debbie & Marcy and amanda behind the camera!

4x pics

2008-10-03T17:48:00.000-07:00

Some of you wanted to see pictures of the last time we went out (may), so here you go! I think there is probably some mud somewhere inside i know it was everywhere, we should have take a piture before washing it!! going again this month on the 11th so i am sure there will be some good ones especially with the rain we have been finally getting.
enjoy.

was stuck in this you will see the pics below.

Knee deep in mud soup!

caught some air!

reflection

2008-10-03T12:06:00.001-07:00

Ive been doing alot of thinking lately about my life, the ways things have gone or not gone.

There are some things i have done that of course i regret some things that i know i have missed out of, poeple i wish i would have gotten to know better and relationship wounds it would have been nice to heal but its to late. the biggest one for me is the relationship with my father, we have never gotten along. in fact he has called me a looser and a disapointment. if you have read any of my prevoius blogs on blogspot you know how i feel about that so i wont go over it again.

a couple of months ago i made a comment about my dad getting cancer, how one day he would die from it and the family would be better off. of course i didnt mean it, but now that he actually has cancer and has been considering not getting treatment for it, i am mourning the loss of the relationship we should have had.

then there is my kids, matthew and samantha most because i know they are missing out on alot of things, and i wish they would allow me to do more for them. with my dads health i am sure that will soon be changing. and then there are my friendships most of the people who call themselves my friends ar not truely my friends, i would never call them up to complain about my life because thats not what they want to hear from me. yes i have girlfriends but i dont let them in, i keep it to knitting, playgroups and other things that dont get to personal but you can still laugh with them and have a good time. then finally we get to past relationships. i know i have not always mae the right choices and I have those people who will always have a place in my heart, who i could never hate, even though there was a time i was hurt or mad, those people gave me something wonderfull.

Through all of this I have been looking to God for direction, strength, and support. He has proven Himself faithful again and again. Here are some verses that have really encouraged and directed me at this time.

Matt 7:7-11

7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

9 "Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11 If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!
NIV

Phil 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
NIV

Rom 12:2-3
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is-His good, pleasing and perfect will.

3 For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given you.
NIV

I see life as a journey. I don't have the answers or the map. God does. He is my guide and I need to look to Him and trust Him. When I do this the journey may not be easier, but at least I know that I am following my God and not the lost world.

its been awhile

2008-09-30T04:11:00.000-07:00

since i have posted a blog on here so i thought i would go ahead since i have alot on my mind and i cant sleep.
what do i have to talk about.. how about post partum depression (ppd) well i thought in may i reached the bottom, but i didn't. i knew something was wrong, i knew i have a hard time with mothers day so i should have been prepared right? yeah good in theory but hard to do when it comes down to the day. most often day went well, i was depressed in church but it seemed to get worse as the day went on. James told me how much he hated me, i was already feeling horrible from my mothers day blues. anyone who has lost a child know how i felt on mothers day. but by 4pm i had had enough. fast forward 3 months. i was feeling overwhelmed, sad and at the end of my rope. my dr asked me if everything was okay, he said he thought i had ppd ( no really) i had been telling him that since i gave birth but hey i guess i dont know what i am talking about right i mean i am only just a regular person not a doctor. but i defiantly hit rock bottom labor day weekend. I'm dealing with all life's shit better Ive unloaded my plate by a ton i do have some more to do but how unloaded can it get when you run 2 businesses, home school, go to cub scouts,boy scouts, girl scouts, have 5 kids, a dog a cat and a dad with cancer... alright I'm being yelled at for not being in bed it is 4:23 and I'm been up doing nothing on the computer but trying to wear myself out since 11:30.. to many thoughts. especially since i recently got an email from someone from my past and i have alot to say alot i want to know alot i want answers to but i know how i can be emotional so i am not asking them, oh believe me i wrote an entire email, but then i deleted it and wrote back a few words. in time i will get the answers that i want and need. alright kids will be up in about 3 hours so i had better at least get that much sleep.

Sunday I wanted to Die

2008-05-13T14:50:00.001-07:00

hello, well some of you know that i lead a pretty busy life. sometimes alot busier than I really want to. well i have been heading down this spiral of depression for sometime now and i finally hit bottom. I want to thank all of my friend who noticed that something was not quiet right with me, even the friends who i dont talk to that much. Most of you know how much i HATE mothers day and why. Im about to be 100% totally honest with you all so if you choose to not like me because i am a human being then thats fine.

Sunday I wanted to die, i mean really die. I knwo its not the anwser and i've seen first hand what it can do but i still wanted to die.

Deprssion hits you and you may not even realize it, you think tomorrow will be better, tomorrow i will be happier, tomorrow i will like how i look, tomorrow i will feel like cleaning the house or putting the laundry away, tomorrow i will like my kids, tomorrow i will actually feel loved ( even if i know i am). every day after that is still tomorrow and it does not get better by itself, it just keeps getting worse. and when you surround yourself with dysfunctional people ( if you think i am talking about you then i probably am) then all you become is dysfunctional to, they bring you down to there level and as i recently heard it stated rot your brain with there complaints.. okay yes as your friend i am supose to listen with an open heart and be there for you when you need me but come .. awhile of the same shit and people not listening to crap you say then why ask me, REALLY.

now everyone knows ive got my own shit on my plate and i really dont have time for yours, i have a few commitments that i can not get out of or really dont want to so i will keep doing them but as for all the other things that can work without me, then off they will go.

so as far as the smile on my face im sure you wont see it for awhile or at least one that is real, so when you ask me how i am and i tell you fine just know i am probably lying, im not fine and i havent been for a long time. thanks to those who have noticed and to the rest that i see or talk to almost every day SCREW YOU...

there you have it im human and have flaws, if you dont like it kiss my ass.

whats going on

2008-04-07T15:10:00.000-07:00

well for those who read this, ive been working on my website and have made a few changes. I no longer own Sprinkled With Granola its supper official! but we have moved on with a new venture at www.greenmammas.com a shared journey of several great minds I am making baby slings and such and can not wait to get my first batch finished and listed for sale!!

marsupial mammas (my original site) will be back up soon and i am getting really excited about that, he web masetr is hard at work on it.

let me tell you about green mammas; just about all the products currently listed are made by work at home moms (wahms) so when you make a purchase you are stimulating your local economy.

we are looking into having a booth at the local farmers market but of course we will have have to have a considerable amount of items premade.

Things are going great and as spring starts acting like spring and summer gets nearer they only get better!

I spent the weekend on the astoria/seaside coast of oregon and will post some pictures to when i get the camera out of the car!! not alot of me though since i was doing the picture taking.

ttyl

Spring Snow

2008-03-28T10:29:00.000-07:00

well we all know that here in washington we have crazy weather but come on snow in spring!!! i woke up to white this morning and then it started raining, most of it went away but now its back to snowing! the weather around here is literally changing by the minute.

crazy days

2008-03-27T13:03:00.000-07:00

Ever wonder what my days are filled with, here you go... went to bed at 2am, sarah got up to eat at about 7 so i fed her she went back to sleep. i thought i would get a few more minutes of sleep before jake and marian woke up. 9am sarah woke up. jake and marian were alrady up watching tv and eating some yummy fruit, unfortunatly that meant smooshing strawberries on the floor AHHH!
Cleaned up that mess had breakfast, got everyone dressed (but me) now its 11am, sarah is tired so down for a nap she went. I folded some laundry but getting it put away is another thing! 12 jake and marian driving me crazy running around like maniacs! 12:30 we start to make lunch, they want raviolies. okay i admit i like them to!
Now here it is 1pm everyone is done eating, ive got to get jake working on some school work. sarah is still sleeping, marian is tired. i might be able to get her to have a nap for an hour or so. jacob is walking in circles talking about some barbie thing he saw on tv that he wants, dang it i hear the toilet flush AGAIN.....
later we will have dinner probably about 5pm. at 6:30 i will be leaving to go to a homeless feed that is as long as this head ache goes away. if not i have a book to finish reading and some knitting to catch up on. I'd really just like to sit and relax tonight so i will probably do that instead. i just looked at my finger nails and realized that i need to get polish remover. maybe tonight i will get in bed by 10, but i doubt it. then tomorrow all of it will start over again.

yep pretty great day huh.

2008-03-24T23:16:00.000-07:00

Jacob and mommy

My new short hair! ( 10.5 inches shorter)

Sarah managed to get up the stairs

Sarah eating one of her 1st non milk meals.

sometimes you just have to wonder

2008-03-22T16:54:00.000-07:00

what you are supose to be doing with your life. I have almost everything i want and really i do say almost. I have a nice house, 2 running cars an RV great kids and a wonderfull church family. I guess i should be happy with what the lord has provided me but sometimes i have to wonder what does he have in store for me next. I love my kids and I love my job, I love the Lord but sometime i wish i just had someone who felt the same way about all of those things as me. What is it with life that always leaves us wanting more.
Tomorrow is Easter and once again i have no special plans to do anything on such an important day for everyone especially christians.

well enough thinking for now!

To everyone i know

2008-03-09T00:31:00.001-08:00

I want to say sorry if i havent been myself, ive had alot gooing on, alot of changes tha i am trying to make for the better, ive been tired and at my whits end way to much lately, i need more sleep and i need to figure out how to better make my kids listen before they are totally out of control. in the last year ive.. started a new playgroup, started new busines ventures,had a baby, started home schooling, been on a trip, moved, been baptised and more.

i just NEED some down time 2 days of doing nothing.

okay new pics

2008-03-08T19:49:00.000-08:00

Okay so a few things are differant, winter did a number on the yard so it needs to be brought back to life, the living and dining room are no longer white. I also LOVE my country porch and boy you should see the back deck! I can hardly wait to plant some flowers clean up the flower beds and start a garden maybe i'll start with herbs i hear there easy!!

Back yard

More back yard

My tiny Kitchen

Living Room, check out the floor to ceiling fire place!

Dining Room

Outside

oh great

2008-03-06T11:47:00.001-08:00

so i changed my template and somehow think i lost all my blogs! im so irritated.

lets see

2008-02-09T10:41:00.000-08:00

its going good in the new house a few things to get use to but like i said so far so good. and maybe one day soon i will have cable! (direct tv comming on monday!!)

oh yeah i got a ton of my hair choped off its now pretty short! last measurment was just iver 10 inces when at first they thought it was only 8 1/2 !!!!! just enough to donate so off it went, now i feel liek getting it cut had a purpose other than i just didnt want it anymore. plus unless i want it even shorter and curly i have to flat iron it every day to make it look better since its curly/wavy.

im moving

2008-01-29T03:57:00.000-08:00

im moving packing my stuff this week and moving out!!! i hope to be put of this house by feb 10th and hand the keys over but we will see.

here is a pic of the new place
its a cute house on 2.25 acres, will post inside pic when i get them. phone number will stay the same.

what does it mean to be a friend

2008-01-09T00:42:00.001-08:00

what does it mean to me to be a friend? I will accept my friends for there faults. i do not have to like or accept the choices that they make, i can let them know that it is not okay or i can sit by silently while they make mistakes. a friend will help you pick up the pieces no matter what, give you a shoulder to cry on, a listening ear at any time of the day or night. drive hundreds of mile to be with you when you need it the most, even when you do not ask for it or tell you they dont. a friend will come be with you when your loved one passes away, hold your hands as you burry yours. no matter what you do or have done will still love you and trust you and you them.

very few people find friendship like that. Ive been very lucky to have found it in a couple of people. my best friend Bekki my #1 with my faults and hers. we just went over the 10 year! and for those who know to do that in a navy town that is very hard, people move away you loose touch and eventually loose track, someone who once you would have told anything you dont even know what happened to them, that is very sad.

there are others that i keep in close contact with and some i'd really like to be able to get back to that place again but what do you do when someones been hurt, how do you get back what youve lost? you dont i guess you just have to start from scratch again.

My life is but....

2008-01-09T00:39:00.000-08:00

My life is but a weaving between my God and me,
I do not choose the colors, He worketh steadily.
Ofen times He weaveth sorrow, and I in foolish pride,
Forget He sees the upper, and I the underside.
Not till the loom is silent, and shuttles cease to fly,
Will God unroll the canvas and explain the reason why.
The dark threads are as needful in the skillful Weaver's hand
As the threads of gold and silver in the pattern He has planned.

2008-01-09T00:18:00.000-08:00

When you are doing something God does not want you to do he puts up road blocks or sends you signs that it may not be wise, sometime we understand them right away and sometimes it takes a bit to figure them out. Sometimes by the time you figure them out its to late.

I wish that it did not take so much figuring out for some people.

getting ready for christmas

2007-12-20T13:51:00.000-08:00

Im not sure why but the closer christmas gets the crazier my kids get!

what did you do for thanksgiving

2007-11-24T19:00:00.001-08:00

me well i went to my parents house... why do i punish myself like that! no really the only reason i went is because it was samanthas 11th birthday. wow 11 already, i can still remember giving birth to her 11 years ago like it was yesterday. i guess it could have been a worse day but i would have much rather have been somewhere else but there is always next year huh.

so how did you spend your day?

some new pics

2007-11-24T18:56:00.001-08:00

sarah is now 5 months old! can you believe taht she is getting so big so fast! and she still has those cute green eyes.

what a weekend

2007-11-05T13:55:00.000-08:00

so went to Astoria to see my best friend on saturday and then sunday spent the day driving down the coast (101) to look for the perfect birthday gift for her mom. we went all the way down to tillamook and went to the cheese factory and had lunch (mine came right back up) and ice cream YUMMY!! anyways all that and the only gift she got her she got in astoria!! go figure huh. it was a fun weekend.

and now that im home its time to get ready for the trip to sacramento and back. james the kids and I are taking the train downand driving an RV back. im really not looking forward to it but oh well, james cant say i dont do anything for him...

I'll post pics when i can!

new fabric!

2007-10-26T13:15:00.000-07:00

http://s228.photobucket.com/albums/ee15/sprinkledwithgranola/

41 fabric options, come check out whats new and ready to go out the door!

Daddy Babywearer of the future!

2007-10-11T17:28:00.000-07:00

Jacob is always wanting to carry Sarah around so i had an idea!!! of course he isn't allowed to go far from mom.

I hate cars

2007-10-10T15:38:00.000-07:00

God i would be so much better off if i didn't have to worry about fixing my car! so i need new brakes in the suburban, that makes me mad, especially since i told James there was a funny sound and he ignored me, guess i should have taken it in myself....now on to the car needs a new fuel injector runs like shit and everyday it gets worse i know with my luck I'm going to brake down on the side of the road one day and be screwed.. oh yeah what makes that better is that my battery on my cell is always dying soooo i get a car charger guess what the liter in the car doesn't work!

yep and if it cant get any worse while i am bitching about it to James he tells me the Jeep is leaking transmission fluid AND oil but he cant figure out where from great huh....

just add that all on top of the crazy day Ive had.... yep off to the mall to try and gain some sanity and think about crap.

you know what sucks

2007-10-10T14:02:00.000-07:00

god you know when you have to do something that you dont want to do and you know that someone is going to be hurt, yeah it sucks just thinking about it makes me sick because i really care about this person and it hurts me just to do it. i'm not doing this again it NEVER turns out good... i cant believe people ask me for relationship advice

so i'll be lonely tonight doing me normal pm thing.

wow

2007-10-05T15:19:00.000-07:00

So today my friend and business partner lost her husband in Iraq. Her mom just called me and I dont know what to say to her, i love her like family and her husband was a great great man who truely sacraficed everything for his family. this was his 3rd time in Iraq. he was due home around christmas, just before his sons 1st birthday.

Makes me re think a few things, off to make some calls.

open mouth insert foot

2007-10-05T02:19:00.000-07:00

Do you even have one of those moments where you say something and you sorta wish you didnt yeah i have lots! i posted something to my friends myspace, really meant it but maybe it was something i should have kept to myself along with many other things tonight, like jeff foxworthy says ; here's your sign.....

do I feel an awkard moment comming......

need sleep

2007-10-04T09:59:00.000-07:00

I begged James to please come take care of the kids today before i kill them! I NEED SLEEP. And they are bouncing off the walls almost literally. Jake keeps jumping on the sofa y'all know how much i hate that, Marian isn't listening and poor Sarah is trying to get some sleep., they must know I am tired and want sleep so they are going crazy.. i need to go to the yarn shop later and get help finishing my diaper soaker I stoped by yesterday but didn't have it with me. I got more yarn to start yet another project, but I'm not getting much done lately. (wink) but on a happier note ...Grey's anatomy is on tonight!

seriously in bed tonight by 10 (maybe I'll get there by 12)

lets see what am i doing today... cut some more fabric to take to my moms, vacuum, dishes, i still need to get groceries, laundry, and all this while chasing after a 2yo feeding a 3mo every 2 hours and Jacob's school work... do you all see what my problem is? TO MUCH CRAP!

off to put Marian for a nap!

(ps. I spell checked)

Jacob's 1st day of school

2007-10-03T13:30:00.000-07:00

yeah! grade K here comes jake, watch out! his teacher seams very nice. at first this morning he did not want to go... no please i want homeschool today he beged me, he walked in the door so timid it was cute.. but he needed to go as much as i needed a break I told myself i was going to come home and clean and get other stuff done while the girls were naping, nope I took a nap did my hair that took about 30 minutes so im getting faster at straighening it, and i had no idea it was so darn long!! thenput on some makeup, after i went and found it..apparently the kids decide it would be fun to play with it last night while i was gone AHH! ah to feel normal... havnt seen me today thats okay tell me how stress free i look anyways!

well almost time to get jake so i should go get marian up from her nap, she hasnt slept this long all summer!

then what? hmm make dinner for the kids and off to barnes and noble for me by the time i get there it will probably be like 6ish and tehn maybe just maybe i will be home early enough to go to bed early!

thoughts of the past

2007-10-03T00:41:00.001-07:00

As the holidays get closer i realize just how much i miss from my past. My Grandmother and Uncle have been in my thoughts alot lately. I wonder how things would be if they were still around, my grandmother would have been such a wonderfull great g-ma, and the thoughts of wondering and hoping that they are both togther in heaven but so unsure it leaves me mixed up on my thoughts of suicide, i use to think that regardless you go to hell if you kill yourself but now i hope with all my might that you get another chance. and wanting anwsers i have still never gotten WHY WHY WHY. and knowing that no one really knows how i feel and the one person i can talk to about anything is so far away. why it is bringing up so many feelings for me lately i dont know, it has been almost 6 years since his passing and 13 for my grandmother I'm just glad that I still see there faces and remeber all the good that they both did. The are is still so much she had to teach me, but im glad that i got what i did and i know i poses so many of her traits and her beautiful hair and eyes! and i hope some of her southern hospitality. I really wish i remembered my grandfather better and hope tht my kids get enough time with there aunts and uncles and grandparents to remember them when they go.

and then of course my frineds, my nearest and dearest friend live in another state, and although we are still close and i know i can share everything with her i of course wish we lived closer to each other so we could share in each others lives every day. I dont think i will ever have another friend like her! I would go to the end of the earth for her, and who says your one great love has to be a man? why cant it be your best friend? (thats her in the pic with me).

so much for in bed by midnight!

2007-10-03T00:26:00.000-07:00

I swore to myself in bed my midnight... yeah right who was i kidding. i set up my new laptop, put laundry in for jacob, cleaned the kitchen, took the dog(s) out then cleaned up dog poo, marian got up and wanted love time with mama and a drink, checked my mail that " just one more time" and now this! I'm listening to my new CD which love and thinking about someone. I had a good day but a great night! have you ever met someone who you just cant stop lookin at? really want to kiss but have to control yourself and hate it and before the night is over want just one more touch, well next time i dont know that i am going to control myself! I do know that tonight i am going to bed happy, and i havent done that in awhile!

some of you know about a part of my past that i dont share but for some reason i felt the need to get it out and see if the interest was still there, I hope it is.

on another note my new laptop is awsome!! it will take some getting use to but i'll get it all figured out soon enough.

alrighy heading of to bed

2007-10-02T10:34:00.000-07:00

Ive come to realize
1. I've come to realize that, my ex:Is an asshole
2. I've come to realize that, I talk:just to hear myself!
3. I've come to realize that, I love:chocolate
4. I've come to realize that, I have:to much stuff on my plate
5. I've come to realize that, I've lost:touch with too many friends
6. I've come to realize that, I hate it when:it rains
(dont know where 7 went)
8. I've come to realize that, Marriage:sometimes sucks
9. I've come to realize that, Somewhere, someone is thinking:what am i going to eat
10. I've come to realize that, I'll never be:able to do everything
11. I've come to realize that, I have a crush on:Hmmm no one i guess
12. I've come to realize that, The last time I cried was:last night
13. I've come to realize that, My cell phone is:up to m y ear way to much
14. I've come to realize that, When I wake up in the morning:i want to go back to sleep
15. I've come to realize that, Before I go to sleep at night:i check my email just "one more time"
16. I've come to realize that, Right now I am thinking about:how tired i am
17. I've come to realize that, Babies are:lots of work!
18. I've come to realize that, I get on myspace:to much
19. I've come to realize that, Today :ive got a lot o do
20. I've come to realize that, Tonight I will:get nothing done! or mayeb havea date.. who knows
21. I've come to realize that, Tomorrow I will:Take jacob to his first day of public school ( yuk)22. I've come to realize that, I really want to:go back to bed

Thoughts and feelings

2007-10-02T01:08:00.000-07:00

So ive decide this week that i do way to many things, today james and i talked about what it is i am going to be giving up to make life a little easier for me for awhile. it will most likely be my moms group. I have met some wonderfull Ladies and had some great times but with so many other great groups out there and most of my members also members of these i just dont see the need anymore, I will keep my forum and probably transfer the group to a yahoo group where its free...
I never would have thought that having another baby would be so much work but boy is it and boy am i tired! these late nights till after midnight then up at 6 are starting to really take its toll and my family is paying the price and i dont want to be the mom who is always out the door as soon as dad gets home or who is constantly going and cant stay home i mean for heavens sake kids need to be home and need to have there down time and taking them out when they are to tired is only setting them up for failure, yes they need to be out but in moderation! I want to be the best mom that i can be and part of doing that is knowing my limits.. AND boy do i long for the days of feeling beautiful and put together and the days when my Sig other told me or looked at me like there was no other woman in the world more beautiful to him, Im not perfect i know that but come on Ive had 5 kids!
and to top it all off my own father hates me.. Im not my brother who at 22 cant keep a job or my sister who at 34 is a drug addict and probably wont live much longer (although im surprised she made It to 30) but a 31 yo mom who went from a 17to high school drop out to have a baby to a navy wife raising 2 kids, to a single mom and someone who has been places most never emotionally recover from and could not fathom going to a mom of 5 kids who after 3 went to college and while pregnant continued and graduated! my biggest accomplishment yet and he never once said he was proud, I will never forget how he acted as if was a burden to show up at my grad ceremony. and then the last straw sunday he actually called me a looser.. LOOK IN THE FUCKIN MIRROR ASSHOLE (ah that felt good) no one will truly ever understand where ive been and what it took to pull myself up from that black hole and how much it takes not to go back there again.. and if the day could get any worse... need some major work on the suburban breaks and something else and cant drive it till its fixed and i bought a much needed new notebook today and its not working so i have to go try and excahange it for one that does work tomorrow. anyways enough from me for one day.

wait time

2007-09-29T19:42:00.001-07:00

Currently we are looking at a one week turn around! (sun the 7th) thank you everyone for making it a great kick off and spreading the word!

current wipes selection

2007-09-28T23:00:00.001-07:00

http://s228.photobucket.com/albums/ee15/sprinkledwithgranola/

check out the current selection of fabris choices for cloth wipes

price changes

2007-09-27T22:40:00.001-07:00

after making a batch of wipes and realizing taht i did not figure in the sales tax that i paid we haev had to do some recalculations and re-price the wipes. you will still find them very competitivly priced, and most of all you are supporting a local WAHM.

new price 8x8 $1.00 each buy 9 get the 10th free. other sizes available at your request and would depend on size to figure cost.
please keep in mind at this price we are not making very much money and if i can lower the price any i will, it all depends on cost of materials.

we can also make them with your fabric at a reduced price as well.

wips sizing

2007-09-27T22:31:00.000-07:00

@ 4x4

@ 6x7

@ 8x8
These are all taken on a regular sheet of printer paper. and always measure no smaller than the sizes shown, these 3 are just a tad bigger.

burp cloths

2007-09-27T11:38:00.000-07:00

Burp cloths also availble in a 6x8 terry one side flannel the other serged edges. they are available in any of the fabric options as well. cost $1.00 each or $5.00 for a dozen

2007-09-26T23:57:00.000-07:00

here's the link for cloth wipes fabric choices.

http://s228.photobucket.com/albums/ee15/sprinkledwithgranola/

new at SWG

2007-09-25T23:26:00.000-07:00

SOOOOO It will be a busy weekend in our house, I will be busy making hopefully about 300+ cloth wipes, depending on how much time it takes. I have almost 100 pre ordered! what is cloth wipe and what do you use it for you say??? (here you will see a picture of a flannel/terry wipes )well its just that a wipe either for your body or your baby or toddlers for there bodies faces or bottoms. these are more commonly use by FNL ( families for natural living) and cloth diapering parents. They are usually made from either a soft flannel, velour or terry. below is s basic run down of what sizes we will carry and prices. we will take photo's to post of availble stock. These wipes will be hand made by us! we can make them in any combination of fabrics availble flannel,terry,velour and sherpa coming soon. although most of our wipes are done in 4x4 and 8x8 we can make them any size you wish at a specialty pricing. This includes square edges instead of rounded. Thye are machine wash just like all your other laundry making things really simple for you!

Wipes

Availble in 8x8 in the following options flannel/flannel flannel/terry terry/terry the cost for the 8x8 is $1.00 each buy 9 get the 10th free.

Other sizes available for special order. price depends on size.

special orders & bulk pricing

we need about 7 days for special orders to be ready. If you are interested in bulk pricing please let us know at sales@sprinkledwithgranola.com we accept cash/local check (must show ID) paypal and credit cards through Paypal (no account needed)

what is attachment parenting?

2007-09-24T13:04:00.000-07:00

you will read about the 4 b's of attachment oarenting or AP... you dont have to do them all to be an AP parent!

Attachment parenting, a phrase coined by pediatrician William Sears, is a parenting philosophy based on the principles of the attachment theory in developmental psychology. According to attachment theory, a strong emotional bond with parents during childhood, also known as a secure attachment, is a precursor of secure, empathic relationships in adulthood.
History
Attachment theory, originally proposed by John Bowlby, states that the infant has a tendency to seek closeness to another person and feel secure when that person is present. In comparison, Sigmund Freud proposed that attachment was a consequence of the need to satisfy various drives. In attachment theory, attachment is considered a biological system and children are naturally attached to their parents because they are social beings, not just because they need other people to satisfy drives. Attachment is part of normal child development.
Developmental psychologist Mary Ainsworth devised a procedure, called The Strange Situation, to observe attachment relationships between a human mother and child. She observed disruptions to the parent/child attachment over a 20 minute period, and noted that this affected the child's exploration and behavior toward the mother. This operationalization of attachment has recently come under question, as it may not be a valid measure for infants that do not experience distress upon initial encounter with a stranger (e.g., Clarke-Stewart, Goossens, & Allhusen, 2001).
According to Attachment Parenting International (API) there are 8 principles that foster healthy (secure) attachment between the caretaker and infant. While none of these principles are derived directly from original attachment research, they are presented as parenting practices that can lead to "attunement", "consistent and sensitve responsiveness" and "physical and emotional availability" that research has found to be key factors in secure attachment.

Eight principals of attachment parenting
Per Dr. Sears' theory of attachment parenting (AP), proponents such as the API attempt to foster a secure bond with their children by promoting eight principals which are identified as goals for parents to strive for. These eight principals are:
Preparation for Pregnancy, Birth and Parenting
Feed with Love and Respect
Respond with Sensitivity
Use Nurturing Touch
Engage in Nighttime Parenting
Provide Consistent Loving Care
Practice Positive Discipline
Strive for Balance in Personal and Family Life
These values are interpreted in a variety of ways across the movement. Many attachment parents also choose to live a natural family living (NFL) lifestyle, such as natural childbirth, home birth, stay-at-home parenting, homeschooling, unschooling, the anti-circumcision movement, the anti-vaccination movement, natural health, cooperative movements, and support of organic food.
However, Dr. Sears does not require a parent to strictly follow any set of rules, instead encouraging parents to be creative in responding to their child's needs. Attachment parenting, outside the guise of Dr. Sears, focuses on responses that support secure attachments.

Childcare
Attachment parenting proponents value continuous attachment to a primary caregiver. However, many still engage childcare, regardless of whether a parent stays at home. AP-friendly childcare focuses on meeting the child's needs first, but without denying the working parent of their duties outside of the home.

Discipline
Attachment parents seek to understand the biological and psychological needs of the children, and to avoid unrealistic expectations of child behavior. In setting boundaries and limits that are appropriate to the age of the child, attachment parenting takes into account the physical and psychological stage of development that the child is currently experiencing. In this way, parents may seek to avoid the frustration that occurs when they expect things their child is not capable of.
Attachment parenting holds that it is of vital importance to the survival of the child that he be capable of communicating his needs to the adults and having those needs promptly met. Dr. Sears advises that while still an infant, the child is mentally incapable of outright manipulation. Sears says that in the first year of life, a child's needs and wants are one and the same. Unmet needs are believed, by Dr. Sears and other AP proponents, to surface beginning immediately in attempts to fulfill that which was left unmet. AP looks at child development as well as infant and child biology to determine the psychologically and biologically appropriate response at different stages. Attachment parenting does not mean meeting a need that a child can fulfill himself. It means understanding what the needs are, when they arise, how they change over time and circumstances, and being flexible in devising ways to respond appropriately.
Similar practices are called natural parenting, instinctive parenting, intuitive parenting, immersion parenting or "continuum concept" parenting.

See also
Breastfeeding
La Leche League International
Gentle Christian Mothers
Attachment theory
Attachment disorder
Affectional bond
Shared parenting
Co-sleeping

what is Babywearing?

2007-09-24T12:53:00.001-07:00

So since one of my last posts ive gotten about a dozen emails asking me what baby wearing is so here ya go!

Mei Tie (asian style) Maya Wrap (ring sling) French -dessings (Pouch)

Babywearing is the practice of wearing or carrying a baby or child in a sling or other form of carrier. Babywearing is far from new and has been practised for many years around the world. In the industrialized world babywearing has gained popularity, partly under influence of advocates of attachment parenting, however, not all parents who babywear consider themselves attachment parents. Babywearing is a form of baby transport.

Benefits of babywearing
Dr. William Sears, a pediatrician, coined the phrase attachment parenting. One of Sears' principles of attachment parenting is babywearing and he attributes many benefits to babywearing and the in-arms style of parenting.
Claimed benefits of babywearing include:
Mothers' progesterone (mothering hormone) is increased through physical contact with the infant, leading to a more intimate maternal bond, easier breastfeeding and better care, thus lowering the incidence of postpartum depression and psychosomatic illness[citation needed].
Infants who are carried are calmer because all of their primal/survival needs are met. The caregiver can be seen, heard, smelled, touched, tasted, provide feeding and the motion necessary for continuing neural development, gastrointestinal and respiratory health and to establish balance (inner ear development) and muscle tone is constant.
Infants are more organized. Parental rhythms (walking, heartbeat, etc.) have balancing and soothing effects on infants.
Infants are "humanized" earlier by developing socially. Babies are closer to people and can study facial expressions, learn languages faster and be familiar with body language.
Contrary to western cultural myths, independence is established earlier.
Attachment between child and caregiver is more secure.
Decreases risk of positional plagiocephaly ("flat head syndrome") caused by extended time spent in a car seat and by sleeping on the back. Sleeping on the back is recommended to decrease the risk of SIDS. Cranial distortion resulting from non-vehicular time in car seats has shown to be more severe than in children who develop plagiocephaly from back-lying on a mattress. Concern over plagiocephaly has also led the American Academy of Pediatrics to recommend that infants “should spend minimal time in car seats (when not a passenger in a vehicle) or other seating that maintains supine positioning. None of the babywearing positions require infants to lie supine while being carried. Infants can even be worn while they sleep, also decreasing sleeping time spent in a supine position.

Practicality of babywearing

Babywearing allows the wearer to have two free hands to accomplish tasks such as laundry while caring for the baby's need to be held or breastfed. Babywearing offers a safer alternative to placing a car seat on top of a shopping cart. It also allows children to be involved in social interactions and to see their surroundings as an adult would.
Many sling users have found that it is easier on the back and shoulders than carrying their infant in a car seat. The weight of the child is spread more evenly across the upper body.
Slings can also be a fashion statement. They come in many different designs and colors and are available in many different types of materials, including silk, hemp, cotton, wool, fleece, and flax/linen.

Infant feeding and babywearing
Breastfeeding and babywearing often go hand in hand. Many baby slings and other carriers offer mothers privacy and for many mothers, the option of nursing hands-free while tending to other activities or household chores. Not all mothers can nurse hands-free in a baby carrier. Large-breasted mothers and mothers of small or hypotonic infants may need to support the breast or help maintain proper positioning of baby's head or body. Even so, a properly adjusted baby carrier can help reduce arm strain and allow a mother more freedom of movement while nursing, even if it does not allow her to be completely hands-free.
Babywearing can help premature babies and babies who are slow weight gainers to gain weight at a faster rate. Since the baby is held up close to the mother, the baby will be able to be nursed more often and often for longer intervals. Kangaroo care is well-studied and has shown clear benefits to premature and ill infants.
Not all parents find breastfeeding in a sling or carrier easy. It is important, before attempting to breastfeed in a carrier, to first master the art of breastfeeding without a carrier. Latch and position are vital, and it is important to establish these first before adding a carrier to the mix. Where breastfeeding difficulties exist, babywearing can simplify the other tasks of parenting by allowing a parent free hands to deal with breastpumps, bottles and other supplementation devices.
Some parents prefer, even with the best carriers, to take time out and sit down to nurse a baby. Some babies may reflexively clamp down when nursing while a parent moves around, so nursing while babywearing is not always entirely comfortable. Individual experience will vary radically not only from parent to parent, but also from baby to baby, even within the same family. Some babies nurse very well in slings and carriers, others do not.
Where breastfeeding fails or is not possible, babywearing can aid attachment by encouraging closeness during bottle feeding and freeing at least one hand. Daycare providers and foster parents often find that babywearing allows them to better meet the needs of multiple children by freeing hands during times when babies need to be held.
Babywearing safety considerations
Parents who babywear must be aware of external hazards in the environment, mostly relating to floor or ground conditions such as curbs, debris, icy sidewalks, etc. As the baby has more freedom of movement and is closer to the adult point of view in a sling, compared to the knee's eye view of a stroller, parents must also watch to prevent the baby from grabbing hot drinks or other dangerous items.
Proper position in the sling/carrier is important for the infant's hip, pelvis and spine growth. Several sources express concern that carriers which put all of a baby's weight on a narrow band of fabric at the crotch may cause problems with spinal growth, and advocate carriers which disperse most of the infant's weight between the hips and thighs. There is much debate on this in the babywearing community since there has not been sufficient research to show that this could be an issue for babies who do not already have a hip or spine condition which would require special consideration.
In general, when wearing a baby it is important to stay attentive to the baby's interaction with the environment. Parents need a little more space to turn around to avoid bumping the baby into counters and doorways. Babies on the back may be able to reach things that the wearer cannot see. Carriers must be fit snugly and properly to avoid an active baby wiggling out, and it is generally recommended with most carriers to avoid wearing an uncooperative child on the back. Babywearing can improve safety, especially in crowded areas such as airports, by keeping a child who might otherwise be able to run into a crowd safely attached to the parent.
A parent who trips and falls while wearing a baby is often better able to "catch" themself and is less likely to injure themself, avoiding dropping the child and less likely to drop the child at all. Very occasionally falls will result in injury to a child and may be compounded by the weight of a parent pressing against the child or against the fabric holding the child.
Knotted carriers should be tied snugly. Several knots are considered acceptable, the square knot or reef knot is usually recommended, granny knots will work with most fabrics which are not excessively slippery, and some fabrics may be twisted and tucked in lieu of knotting, but this is generally considered an advanced skill and should be undertaken only with extensive babywearing experience with care given to avoid slippage. Slip knots should generally not be used as they can come undone more easily, especially around toddlers and small children.
Where young infants and newborns are being worn in "cradle" or other horizontal positions, it is important to be alert to the baby's head position to avoid the baby's head being pushed chin-to-chest and constricting airway. In pouches and other carriers intended for use with the "cradle hold", a towel or small pillow may be placed under the baby's back to improve positioning. One must make sure that all worn babies have good color and are able to breathe easily, and avoid overdressing worn babies, who will stay warm just from being in contact with the parent in most cases. Parents must avoid putting blankets or other fabric in the vicinity of a child's face in or out of a carrier

knitting blog

2007-09-23T22:05:00.000-07:00

check out my kniting blog www.rheas-knits.blogspot.com

more kids???

2007-09-23T21:46:00.000-07:00

so today i saw the play Birth it was really good and hearing birth stories almost makes me want another baby, if for nothing else but to give birth at home in the privacy and safety of my home surounded only by those who are invited.

I really believe that birth is a sacred occasion and woman have the ability to give birth without medical intervention, however on a rare occasion they need help. women should surround themselves with other women and those who make her feel safe. i believe that women left to birth naturaly are more likely to breastfeed and to not have as many problems breastfeeding after birth.
But i also believe that you can have a positive birth experiance no matter where you are as long as you have positive support.

you know what bugs me are those moms and ive heard this before WAY to many times.... well my dr said it would be better if i have a c-section or my dr said i cant have a vbac (vaginal birth after cesarean) because it woudl be to risky or... no dr around me does it. well if its taht important to you then you WILL find a way so shut up and stop complaing, take your care into your own hands and stop letting some stranger who spends 5 minutes with you make the decisions for you. oh and about breastfeeding.... what about when moms say i tried to breastfeedin but i couldnt so i switched to formula.... i want to say yeah but did you really try or did you give up when you had to do all the work.

I'm proud to be a AP mama, i wear by baby and toddler, co-sleep, breastfeed, and treat my kids with respect.. so why do people always say oh your way more "crunchy" then me, why do i hav to be crunchy , maybe i just dont see the point ingiving birth and putting my baby in another room or another bed where they are alone and scared?

Okay enough for one night!

Just an update

2007-09-19T20:22:00.000-07:00

alright so today was a long day all 3 kids are not feeling well, sarah has wanted to be held ALL day, marian has been making messes an not your usually 2yo messes but BIG messes all day and jacob refuses to do anything but sit and complain! such is the life of a mother. Kohl's is opening soon and there hireing!!! should i get a job HAHA! i'm trying to spring clean my house, not getting far though Ive realized i have WAY to much stuff, where did it all come from? who put it here? how do i get rid of it all? CRAIGSLIST!!!

homeschooling is going alright, it feels like he doesnt have enought o do, he does it so quick, I'm not sure if he is actually retaining anything.

knitting is going good as i'm sure you can tell from the pictures, i am almost done with the diaper cover i'm making, I can hardly wait until it is finished and i can test it out! so you see the eyelet holes at the top wher the draw string goes and wher ethe stitch holder is is the front parth of the crotch, right now i am decreasing to get the leg holes and then join it to the front and whala i'm done! its a pretty color to, matches the knitted blanket i made Sarah, i want to make some little socks to match, i think that would be cute.. alright well gotta go feed the baby! I'll post the finish project in a few days!

till then !

jacob's pumpkin hat

2007-09-19T11:35:00.000-07:00

here is a picture of my latest hat! side view... its a pumpkin

top view

front view... gonna make some for the girls to!

HEY!

2007-09-16T22:39:00.001-07:00

Me (left) my best friend Bekki this was after the show

Mama Terri (bek's mom)

Us in costume

Another One! dont you lov ethe stage makeup!!

so we spent the weekend in Astoria and for those of you who dont know where it is it is about a 160 mile drive from the naval base in silverdale... on the Oregon coast it is a beautiful and fun place to visit! This was the closing night of shanghied in astoria I was in one scene and gosh if i woudlnt have decided to have a baby this year would have been in the whole thing! but theres always next year!!! so here are some pictures i seriously wantto loose ALOT of weight after seing them even though i look much bigger than i really am i dont like how "large" i am yes i know I just had a baby, BUT ive got no excuse for not going to the gym ,,, its free!

for those who dont knwo about shanghied check it out at http://www.shanghaiedinastoria.com/index.cfm Hope you enjoyed teh pics... and hopefully you cancheck me out in shanghied's Topsey turvey while I play some male part! oct 29th!

whats up!

2007-09-12T08:11:00.000-07:00

So ive finished a hat i was making for a baby gift, now im almost done with another one that Jacob wanted. and then im going to start working ona diaper soaker that i found a pattern for. Ive been pretty busy with my jnitting trying to keep myself over busy i think... ive been getting boared and if you know me well you know what happens when i get boared, bad things happen!

The kids are doing good, Jacob gave himself a hair cut! its not to bad but the bald spot on the back of the head will take a while to grow out! and marians hair is finally growing.

stiull waiting to hear about James Navy Career, wil he change rates? will he just geta nutral billet? will we move or stay, we really have no idea whats goig on and i dont think he realizes how much it bugs me, although he sems to be taking it in stride and doesnt realize ive put aHUGE part of my life on hold. I wantto open my retail location but i dont want to spend the time and $ to open just to have to close again.

well kids are up so time to go start my day.

newest Knitted hat!!

2007-09-07T23:27:00.001-07:00

This is a cute red one, also made with fixations by Cascade. some how it came out bigger than the last one i did ( scratching head)

Family Pics

2007-09-07T13:57:00.001-07:00

do you ever wantto knock someone off there chair!

2007-08-30T22:57:00.000-07:00

Okay so i go into the DMV today to do a title transfer on the trailer and after calling to make sure i have everything i need this lady is SOOO rude i just wanted to knock her off her chair, saying to me " you can just bring this in a register it, you need a bill of sale to" good god she needed to look in the mirror, okay so i tell her shes being rude and she looks at me like im frekin clueless, i told her to look in the mirror and talk to herself and notice how rude she is and how she may come across to others, this is the second time ive had to deal with her and it will be the LAST! im not going into that DMV again!

mean while back at the bat cave.....
I went to the chiro today my back is all screwed up, no more lifting furnatuure for me, right now it hurts to life the 9 pound baby! my back has been slightly swollen just above my sacrum but now its half way up my spine and killing me. im sure alot of it has to do with Sarah's birth because even she needed an adjustment.. now seriously im going to bed!

get it all out.

2007-08-29T23:03:00.000-07:00

so we got a tent trailer today! yeah i know a little late for this camping season but no excuses for the next! it needs abit of work, probably new cushions all around but you know what it was FREE! which is the best.. my husband keeps making jokes he says we can turn it into a flip that RV....ah no thanks wait a year!
did i tell you i finished my hat? opkay well i did and today i started another, i hope to be done in a couple days, it doesnt take long. This one is for a friend and i hope she likes it.

I started a moms group about 7 months ago and it is going good, it woudl be better if more people showed up, gave some dang input and didnt expect me to pay for it all on my own... so if by renewal time no one has offered up some $ i will probably close it since its not really fair taht not only do i pay for the group and buy supplies for events out of my pocket but no one says thank you to me! and what sucks is that if each member on the group gave me a quarter every month it woudl pay for the group! come on people 25 cents!!!

and today i went to pick up my organic produce when what do you know she didnt get my email AGAIN!!! so i didnt get what i wanted and now i am forced to going to the grocery store to get what i want... i really hate going inthe damn store, maybe next week i'll get my goods!

Ive started planning jacobs first two weeks of school, im really not sure what to plan for how long what i should be expecting him to get done ect, and i really wish i had more friends who were excepting of homeschool and who did it themselves to help me out! at least till i get the hang of it.

well check back later for more updates!

Hi Everyone

2007-08-29T00:09:00.001-07:00

So Ive been blogging on myspace for awhile now but i thought i would start one here. I dont know what to write tonight but i will post tomorrow about the day in the life of me and whats going on in the Dettmar house!